This was B’s last week of work and man did it do its best to remind us why we’re glad to be leaving this place. He had unpredictable hours, late days, and highly disruptive phone calls sending him in to work on his off days. It was everything that I dislike about his job encapsulated into one short week. Still, it was his last week of work and we’re starting our last week in our house, so it wasn’t all bad by any means.
Reflections – Lows:
B coming home at lunch on Friday to tell me that he had to work Saturday. I reacted emotionally, as I always do, and we struggled with that. I cried, we raised our voices briefly and I got on with being disappointed to lose yet another day to his stupid job here. The good news is, that because of this instance I delved into our personality types and conflicts and we had a good conversation out of it.
Getting a 92% on my exam. It threw me back to my collegiate years when I cried over a B on a first draft of a research paper. I’m such a perfectionist and any kind of school work brings that out in me. I have to remember that this course is pass/fail and that I need to focus on what I’m getting out of it and not a percentage for a grade.
Reflections – Highs:
Working out with a gym partner this week. I wasn’t sure how it would go, but it’s been fun. She is an extra push to get out of the bed in the morning and it’s kind of nice to not have to rely solely on music to get me through my workouts. On top of that, she’s been weight lifting for as long as I’ve been alive so I’m trying to soak up as much as I can before we leave. She made me try some new lifts on Friday and my arms are still feeling it.
Walking daily with another friend. We started a few months ago, walking together every morning. She has an infant and I take my dogs and we just go and talk about everything and nothing. It’s beyond perfect. She vents about her frustrations, I share mine, and we both get much needed adult conversation. I’m going to miss her so much when I leave. In fact, she might be the only person/thing that I truly miss from this place.
Figuring out that B and I are Spock and Kirk and realizing that we need to adjust our communication attempts accordingly. It’s not a perfect fit, but it’s pretty darn close. He’s very analytical and definitely prefers logic over emotion. I go with my gut and react emotionally to everything. At the very least, it gives us something to laugh about when we can’t find a middle ground. Or maybe, more accurately, it gives us a middle ground.
Get the house clean. We out-process our house this week. Which means it needs to be clean and I’m way too cheap to pay someone to come clean it. Which means I need to get it all spiffy so that there are no objections when we turn the keys back over.
Keep working out. I think I can only work out on Monday-Tuesday with my new workout partner but I want to keep going daily. I’ve made it over a week without a miss and I love the way it makes me feel. Some days the gym feels like all that is tethering me to sanity.
Prepare emotionally to say “see you later” and leave. It sounds strange, given how long we’ve been counting down to leaving, but it still doesn’t feel real. I’m not sure what the catalyst for real is going to be. But, I have some goodbyes to say this week and a lot of preparation for the actual leaving that comes shortly thereafter and I need to get ready to say it.
What’s on tap for you this week?