So, right after I wrote that post about keeping on with everything? I quit. I quit stressing and feeling ill all day. I quit crying in the bathroom during my breaks. I quit dreading waking up every morning. I quit feeling physically ill every Sunday night. I quit my job.
I know, it’s sort of backwards to everything I’ve been aiming for all year. It’s okay to be shocked. I know that B was. I made the decision in about 15 minutes and it took him a whole week to come around. But come around he did. I now have two days left at the old job before launching in to teaching piano from my home. Right now I have 22 students scheduled and my goal is to at least double, if not triple that number.
So yeah, I’m back to where I was in March. Aiming to teach piano and stay a free lancer. I tried really hard to be the person that I needed to be to do the job I was hired to do. I still adore the kids there. But, it wasn’t worth the stress. It wasn’t worth the heart ache. It wasn’t worth the damage to my soul.
I went through a period where I quit believing in my own worth. I thought I had worthless degrees, that I’d messed everything up. And then, I remembered that I love music. I love teaching kids. And so I’m back to teaching piano. I’m back to believing that my dreams are worth having. I’m back to being okay with not fitting the corporate America mold.
So yeah, I’m shaking things up. I’m getting back to doing the things I love. Including blogging.