And then I blink and the next thing I know, 10 days have gone by without me saying anything. I wish it was because we were out having awesome adventures. Or because I’d started working a kick ass new job that has left me run down and with no time on my hands. But, the truth is that isn’t it.
The truth is that I don’t know what I want out of here anymore. Sometimes I dream of letting this site die down and go create a new online persona. One that can be me still, but that can talk more about what I do now. I don’t know why I’m not comfortable with being a military wife blogger on this site, but I think it has to do with feeling like it’s too easy to know who I am here. Which, is actually true. Most all of you know my real name, etc and that’s something I’m not sure I could risk if I wanted to blog truthfully about being a military spouse. Of course, that assumes that I actually have a readership or would attract readers as such.
Not having a set identity for this blog is wearing me out. And it’s keeping me from posting. I’ll think of something I want to blog about and then not know what to say. At the same time, I don’t want to turn the other blog into my main blog. Because that one is firmly attached to the real identity. There aren’t any nicknames over there and it’s posted to my facebook feed whenever I update. But that steals all the travel posts from this page.
So I don’t know what I’m going to do. Probably blink and find another month has gone by…