Hard

When you realize a dream only to realize it wasn’t all that you hoped – it’s hard.

When you come back to reality from a fantastic get away – it’s hard.

When you spend the weekend with someone in terrible shape but who’s still skinnier than you – it’s hard.

When you learn that a person you’d hope to befriend isn’t interested – it’s hard.

When you are short with a student and cause her to get fussed at by a parent and then she cries – it’s hard.

When you cry between every lesson – it’s hard.

When you cry every time you’re in the car – it’s hard.

When you step on the scale and the numbers are going up instead of down – it’s hard.

When you sit at home while your spouse is on a gender-only night – it’s hard.

When you realize you’ve lied to yourself about how you feel – it’s hard.

When you don’t know how to tell people they’ve let you down – it’s hard.

When you feel like you’ve reached out all that you can – it’s hard.

When you’re still lonely – it’s hard.

When you’re still forgotten – it’s hard.

When you’re still left out – it’s hard.

When you exhaust the possibilities for a friend and there’s still none to be found – it’s hard.

When every community you try to find entry to denies you – it’s hard.

When you realize that it’s only Tuesday and that this summarizes your week thus far – it’s hard.

~The Countess~

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About texancountess

I find myself in the calming roar of the sea, floating gently on the foam of the breaking waves. Blue. Green. Gray. The colors of the sea mark the boundaries of my soul. The tumbled glass finds its polish under the relentless pounding of the waves upon the shore. Thus am I. Rough transitioning to polish, refinement ever a process, finding my niche in the storms of life.
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4 Responses to Hard

  1. Stereo says:

    Sending you massive hugs, K. I hope this weeks does a u-turn and makes you smile by its end.

  2. MJ says:

    Definitely a tough start. At least the getaway was “fantastic.” Hoping for a turnaround for you as well!

  3. Shiny says:

    Hey love. Thinking about you, praying for you, hoping for you, missing you, loving you…
    *hug* (as only you can give)
    Love you. Miss you.
    <3,
    M

  4. myobi says:

    Hey girl. I know it’s been a rough time for you. =( Things WILL get better. I promise.

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