Yeah, I’m still freaking out about the whole thesis defense. It’s stemmed from my fear of the unknown. I have no idea of what to expect and it’s hard for me to handle. I like being in charge. I like knowing what’s coming so that I can field it. And, here, I don’t. I’m hopefully going to take care of that tomorrow when I talk with my prof. This will happen. And no matter how much I fret or worry over it – it won’t change.
And yet, here I was, sitting in my apartment just trying to breathe so that I don’t start crying. (Aside: I really hate it when PMSing coincides with stressful moments in my life, I seriously don’t need that) And a dear friend posted the following as her facebook status:
Worring does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its stregnth
What words those are. Not that this will stop me entirely from worrying. But, I needed to hear right here and now, that worrying does not help. I know this. But the reiteration was very timely. And you know, even if I have to pull out a power point presentation for my defense, I can handle it. I have until Monday. That’s plenty of time. And besides, I need all the strength I can get…no bleeding any off to the evils of worrying.