I still don’t know what I want to be.
I caught up with one of the other grad students in musicology tonight and we had a good discussion about the definitions of our fields and all of the prefixes and suffixes that can be attached to musicology…like historical, systematic, ethno, bio, socio, zoo, (no I didn’t make that up) and how wide and difficult it can be to define it. We shared some good laughs about how we both are not “traditional” musicologists in that we are not thrilled/interested in analyzing musical scores. We both would rather look at the cultural impact…and things like that.
But this conversation led unerringly to what is coming next. And I’m just not sure what I want to do after I finish this. I came straight in to my masters from my bachelors and part of me wants to take some time off. I’d like to take the opportunity to teach music history and know that this is what I want to do before I make the commitment to a PhD. And I’d also like to just teach regular music lessons too.
Whatever I end up doing and where ever I end up doing it I know that it will be an adventure. And while I don’t know what’s going to happen I’m not worrying about it…or stressing about it, rather I’m just pondering now. I know and trust that God is in control. And I’m excited about living it one day at a time. Life is just too much fun to rush through or even worry through.
And, you know, I’ll grow up eventually…I think.