Holding Patterns

We all go through holding patterns in our lives. Times/places where all we can do is sit tight and wait on the Lord. We just have to keep going while not knowing how things are going to turn out. A friend of mine also calls it sitting on the “ti” in life, or staying on the leading tone. I have a couple of thoughts about this.

First, I cannot stand being in these holding patterns, anymore than I can stand sitting on the leading tone. I want resolution. I want to land. I want to continue on with my life and not sit here waiting. And yet, here I am. Waiting. I’m not good at it. Patience may be a virtue but it is not my virtue. I don’t like these places in my life because they hold a lot of uncertainties. I like to know where I stand with people. I don’t like not knowing. Hmm, think the two are related? It’s so hard.

Second, I do not want to spend the rest of my life waiting for clearance to land. Or waiting for the tone to resolve. What if there is a deceptive cadence? What if life doesn’t resolve the way I want it to? Do I just live waiting for “better days?” That seems like a colossal waste of my time. A waste of my life. I want to live each day to the fullest.

So, even though I’m sitting in a holding pattern I’m going to be proactive. Get things done. Enjoy life. After all, how often do you get to fly in circles and have people not fuss at you for not going anywhere?

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About texancountess

I find myself in the calming roar of the sea, floating gently on the foam of the breaking waves. Blue. Green. Gray. The colors of the sea mark the boundaries of my soul. The tumbled glass finds its polish under the relentless pounding of the waves upon the shore. Thus am I. Rough transitioning to polish, refinement ever a process, finding my niche in the storms of life.
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